For years, I searched for wholeness in all the wrong places — in relationships, in marriage, in motherhood, in being the person everyone needed me to be. I was a recovering people-pleaser and perfectionist, hiding behind locked journals and a smile that masked real despair. This post traces that journey: from a grieving little girl who lost her father and grandfather within months of each other, to a woman set free from the weight of her past.

I weighed my options: should I buy the whole chicken from a local farm-to-table feed store or a big grocery chain? I said a simple, half-hearted prayer mixed with doubts. God answered my prayer in a way I didn’t expect. He desires open communication and knows our hearts deeply. Prayer is a powerful gift but can sometimes feel overwhelming or difficult when we don’t know the right words to say. My whole chicken prayer was a tangible reminder of God’s loving provision.

In this devotional, we follow the apostles as they struggle to understand where Jesus is going and His promise to return. Just like the apostles, we have moments we don't understand our circumstances. This devotional encourages us to bring our questions to Jesus, rest in His promises, and hold onto the hope of heaven.